But God had better plans...
As I entered my final year God completely wiped my plans, almost overnight. I became increasingly aware that I was being called to take time out for Him, but had no idea what form that might take. I prayed, and waited, and prayed, and waited, but I didn't feel any clearer about what God was asking of me. So I took the situation into my own hands and started to consider and even apply for various opportunities to serve Him.Eventually I had planned out a whole year's worth of courses and mission which, although Christian, had come from my own research rather than God's guidance. Without realising it I'd fallen back into the trap of mapping out my own life without giving God control.
Of course, God was aware of what was happening even if I wasn't, and He knew He had to drastically take back control. In a worship session at a retreat I went to over Easter, I felt Him urging me to lie flat before Him. In a relatively small worship space where everyone else was standing and dancing, this inevitably meant standing out from the crowd and making myself vulnerable. I wrestled with God for a long time, but eventually gave in. As soon as I hit the ground I felt God saying:
"Now you're ready to see my plan for you!"
I feel so privileged to be able to be taught, moulded and guided in a Catholic setting - where everything I do is centred on Christ Himself in the Eucharist and the rest of life falls into place around it.
For me, Sion Youth isn't a 'gap year', it's a lifestyle. It's a key part of what I pray will be a whole life lived for the Lord.